I know what you must be thinking right now after reading this post’s title: Is this a blog by a young adult who wants to be taken seriously or is it one by a teenage girl who wants the world to know how much she adores Taytay? Well, it’s a little bit of both.

Of course there’s still a little teenage girl inside of me. I would describe myself as a free-spirited, fresh and open-minded soul that has not yet forgotten how to admire and be mad about things or personalities that other people might make fun of. Besides, in my opinion, Taylor Swift is a strong human being that uses her fame wisely to fight for the right things. And she’s reached things, big things, in her young age a lot of people can only dream about. So, yes, I kinda do want the world to know that I admire this young, talented woman.
Now, I’m also a person that idolizes music immensely. It’s one of my greatest passions and it follows me day and night. I would never leave the house without my earphones. I’m serious, even if I only have to go buy something in the shop across my apartment, music is always with me. I could say it is a pretty important part in my life and therefore, it can have a pretty big impact on my emotions. Now, imagine how big of a role it played in my life when I was heartbroken last year. And that’s exactly when Taylor Swift’s music got a total different meaning for me. Or shall I say, exactly three of her songs. Let me tell you why.

I won’t get in too much detail here. Let’s just say my heart was really broken over a person I had fallen hard for and who couldn’t reciprocate those feelings. We have a case of severe unrequited love here. So, I suffered. I suffered a lot and it seemed that nothing really could cheer me up at that time. Now, don’t get me wrong. It wasn’t that kind of thing where I stayed in bed the whole day bawling my eyes out and watching Nicholas Sparks movies. No, I had to go to school, focus on my projects and final exams and I spent a lot of time with my friends. But still, I was in a permanent unhappy state. And thank goodness I discovered that song:

1. Shake It Off

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But I keep cruising
Can’t stop, won’t stop moving
It’s like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, “It’s gonna be alright.”

I don’t even remember how I discovered it and how I forced myself to listen through the whole thing. Because at that time, I didn’t take Taylor Swift seriously and frankly, she annoyed me a little and I didn’t like her music. But as soon as I heard the chorus something happened to me and my broken heart. During those three and a half minutes my heart didn’t feel broken and I forgot about how much I was hurting the past few months. During this short time I actually felt happy and light-hearted. And that was just the beginning of this wonderful discovery. Although this song couldn’t mend my broken heart it never lost its function: to occasionally pull me out of sadness and make me feel happy for several minutes. So, every time that song was on I turned to a different person. You should know about me that I don’t dance. It’s not just that I’m bad at it but I also really can’t stand it. But when that song was playing I danced. Boy, did I dance! No, I shook it off! And up to this day, over a year after the discovery, I still can’t stand still when I hear that song. I dance under the shower. I move my feet in a dance-y kind of way while hungover. And I swirl through the living room no matter what time it is or who’s around. I. Can’t. Stand. Still.
And that’s when I first realized that one of Taylor Swift’s songs was actually able to have a hugely positive impact on me even when I was really down. That’s also when I started listening to all the other songs of her album 1989

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2. You Are In Love

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And you understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars
And why I’ve spent my whole life trying to put it into words

In this song Taylor sings about how you feel when you’re in love or how it’s supposed to feel when you’re (happily) in love. She sings about how she realized that what she was feeling the whole time she was spending time with that boy was actually true love. At the time I was listening to this song I was still very confused about my feelings for that person. I’ve been hurting for about a year at that time which is a pretty long time to have such intense feelings. So, I wasn’t sure if this was still painful love or just the craving for the feeling of being in love. Like I said, I was very confused about my emotional state. And that’s why this song helped me out a lot, to figure out that this was in fact love I felt. It just wasn’t the happy kind of love, it wasn’t the ‘right’ one. I realized that it wasn’t supposed to feel like this. I’m not stupid, of course I knew that love should actually feel like the best feeling on earth. And those beautiful lyrics just reminded me of that fact. After one year of unrequited love I started to feel strong enough, ready enough to slowly get over that person. And I finally did. But not without the perfect soundtrack: my third meaningful Swift song.

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3. Clean

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  • You’re still all over me like a wine-stained dress I can’t wear anymore
  • And by morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean

 

 

I don’t know how they did it but Taylor Swift and Imogen Heap (writers and producers of this song) did a perfect job at describing my feelings to the point. This is a song about a metaphorical addiction (love), conquering that toxic feeling and breaking free from it. It’s simply about getting over somebody and getting ‘clean’. I actually started listening to that song long before I got over that person. But I held on to it as if it was my lucking charm and as a reminder that someday I want to be able to listen to that song and truly feel the words Taylor used in it. And I’m telling you, the moment I could finally do that was priceless. It felt like I finally reached my destination after a long battle against my own feelings. It felt like taking a breath after being kept under water for too long. It was a moment of clarity, victory and freshness. I did it. I struggled, I cried, I fought and I managed to make it out of all that. I am clean.

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